We care, for the better.
A place for families, because you don't have to use drugs to be affected by them.
- How do I know if they're using drugs?
- Why do they use drugs/alcohol?
- Is it my fault?
- How can I cope with their behaviour?
- Understanding the stages of addiction and recovery
- Where do I get the help I need?
- Getting support for your loved one
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Posted by Louise89 on 22 April 2018.
I can’t do this anymore . I can’t cope With my partner destroying his life and there being nothing I can do about it - I can’t take the late nights where I’m worried he won’t be alive when I wake up or the nights where he wakes me up every 3 hours because he needs money to gamble with and when I say no - which is every time he gets aggressive and smashes something - twice now in the last 12 months he’s got high on coke and then gambled and when he’s lost a load of money - thousands - he goes mental because he can get more drugs - smashes doors - walls - my iPad - my phone . Last night he managed to smash a wall 3 doors - his work phone and almost a work computer that has his entire life on . As well as being aggressive towards me . But I feel like I dare not leave - because when he’s at his lowest he then threatens suicide and cries and begs for me to help him . Last night he blamed me - I’m shit - I’m Borning - I’m not enough - I don’t help him - I do nothing - the relationship is nothing - I don’t let him do coke all the time and so I’m ruinging his life . He’s still sat there now - after being on it from 4pm yesterday then smashing the house up at 12pm till 1am then he disappeared for 4 hours doing coke as some random persons house - drove home and has sat ever since gambling. Of course I’ve tried to take the phone from him - begged him to stop -but I’m so angry - I’m at the end of my feather and if I wasn’t scared for his safety I’m get in the car and leave - if just drive - far away . I have never felt so helpless and alone - watching my best friend - my partner - destroy everything from the inside out . I am alone in this and that’s soul destroying . We’ve been together 8 years and when it’s good it’s really good and then on these days - which is about every 4-5 days he does drugs- sometimes we’ve managed to Keep it under control and he does his thing plays a game etc and that’s it but other times - it’s like last night . What do I do .....
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