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Crystal Meth Robbed My Brother
Posted by HelplessSis on 2 December 2014.
I feel so alone and scared. I have tried numerous ways of trying to get help and support after my brother fell victim to addiction. But every time I reach out, we are just turned away. It saddens me so much to see that very little help and support is available for Crystal Meth addicts and their families in the UK. My brother is my rock. He was the male father figure i never had. He was bright, intelligent, handsome as hell and many peoples best friend. He lived a good life, travelling, having fun and partying. Our childhood wasnt great but we got through it. He had great jobs, successful. But everything changed when he started working for the police. He began experiencing homephobic bullying by a supervisor which he was strugglying tondeal with. Having already been disowned by his father(we have different dads) for being gay, our mother was also too ashamed to be proud of who my brother was. He soon began partying more in the London Gay Club scenes. A lot of his friends would take drugs, as did he. But it was a social thing. I still worried. Then domestic violence against him by his then boyfriend and bullying at work drove him to a secret life of constant drug taking. Since 2008, he has been addicted to G. I dont know what else because I was too blind to see and help him after i gave birth to my child. He became more depressed, more drug and risk taking, sex parties and so on. He lost his job, got into a new relationship but started taking more and different drugs, mainly club drugs. Thats when we lost him. He changed so quickly, so dramatically. We had so many arguments, i had many rows with so called friends who were using and abusjng him. Many times i did and still do his shopping and cleaning. Weve fallen out,not spoken for ages. Long time friends kept their distance. I tried rehab, advice lines and support pages. He accidently overdosed on G which he died and thankfuilly was brough back to life wiith immediate resuscitation. Yet he was one of many in the London Gay community suffering life changing and crippling addictions trying to get help and support while faced with stigma, only to be unable to due to the lack of help available. Its like because they are addicts, they dont deserve help and care. But my brother, is the most sweetest, caring, loving, gentle friend you could ever wish for. Last year,, i was shocked to discover some of his friends smoking crystal meth. Because of how bad that drug is, i knew he would never go down that line and be that stupid. If only, i could have spotted the signs before. I cant even biggen to describe how shocking and life altering crystal meth has been. What ive witnessed, seem him go through and suffer, is traumatising. I begged his frisnds he had partied with to help as it was terrifying to see the quick onset the drugs would have. But they just ignored me, then later told him, which would make him more annoyed. He then was with addicts constantly. We could no longer visit and stay at his like he use to. I got my mum to come over, only for her to be in denial. Every single day since his first accidental overdose, ive lived in fear and panic. Not only because more accidental overdoses but because of the risks and injurys he causes on himself when in that scary and shocking state of tweaking and going under. In one monthrecently, he accidently overdosed 3 times shile i was at his. Twice i gave his assistance. But what about all the other times? His friends dont care. But i swear to you, what happens when his taken too much G,crystal meth and methedrone after two days of not sleeping, is the most sureal and shocking thing ive ever seen. Despite this many of those social users, think nothing of it. Ive voice recorded a few occassions. I cant bring myself to listen.My GP is sympathetic but is unable to suggest anytyhing. Things got worse recently when raided his home for drugs and found his drugs however due to the amount and what he had, police are trying to charge him with intent to supply. The station released him on bail to return next month. He has a solicitor but he still allows addicts to come to his. Ive tried getting him into rehab, tried kepping him away from triggers without luck. My mum refuses to take him back and put him in rehab. The one place that seemed good that could have helped him, only help those in the catchment area of Chelsea. Every day im terrified of the door knocking or phone ringing about my brtother. Ive tried taking him, arrangin or going along to a specialist group. But now im more worried than ever as his addictions contimie whi!e police investigate him. How can something so lethal change someone so badly? He was so health concious, so healthy. Hix brain cells have been replaced with that of something completely out of this world. And still, in this day and age, nearly 2015 in the UK, it seems impossible to find some sort of help amd suuport. Not one person ever imagined my brother to be part of CM, yet till this day those that know turned their backs on him.
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