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heroin & crack misery.

Posted by Suzy on 18 December 2016.

Hi I am the mother of a Loving Son who is addicted to crack & heroin. He has been now for almost 20 years of his life. On two occasions during this 20 year period he has gone through 2 detoxs and rehabs the last one in 2009 when he was close to death. Over the last 3 months he has declined terribly into a truly abbhorrent lifestyle.  I haven't been to his flat to see him as I can't bear to see him being used by others that use, using his flat for somewhere to take drugs and sleep. I have kept in contact though and I tell him everytime I speak to him how much I love him. Christmas is upon us and once again he will not be coming for christmas dinner. This is my own choice which has been very difficult for me as his mum. on a number of occasions he has O/D'd and I have found him and his drugs habit is so vast at present I know he would spend the day visiting the bathroom where I would be frightened to death of him not coming back. Yesterday I went to him and although his flat was immaculate, he had some food I noticed how bad his heroin addcition is. He has lost most of the veins in arms and is now injecting into his neck. I am heartbroken all over again and cannot sleep properly. What do I do now? My husband says he will leave if I bring him here, I can't keep making the 21 mile round trip to see him destroying himself in this way, yet he is my only Son, he was sexually abused as a child (which has contributed to this drug use) and he feels himself that death would be his only way out now. Help, what can I do?

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Icarus Trust
21 Dec 2016

Hi Suzy,
Thank you so much for telling your story. I am so sad to read how your son is feeling and how heart breaking and difficult it is for you to know what to do to support him.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust that supports people yourself who are having difficult times due to a loved one's addiction. We have experienced trained volunteers called Family Friends who you could be put in touch with. May be talking with one of them would help you to find a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website www.icarustrust.org
Wishing you all the best.

Suzy
22 Dec 2016

To Icarus Trust, Thank you for your support. I will look at the website. I am a drug and alcohol counsellor myself, but unfortunately can't help my son, especially while he is using. :(  It is good to know there is someone out there who can offer me the support that I need for myself. Thank you.

eavy
29 Jan 2017

Iv only just seen yr post Suzy.Ow i know what hell you are living.Look at my posts under "EAVY".Only difrants is that my son is a crack addict.But i oftern wonder,if he does heroin,as these 2 drugs seem to go hand in hand.My sons addictuon has been on going for the past 18 year,s.As you will know"reading my posts"suffering a heart attack,did not deter his addiction.I just wanted to let you no,i understand your torment.My son of nearly 40 years old,is my life.I will never give up on him,just like you.Your post was december 2016,it would be so nice to hear from you,maybe we could comfort one another.I think we are in a place,where we are at a loss,as to where we go next.Thank you in advance,for your reply.Eavy

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