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I've lost all hope

Posted by Macca on 9 June 2017.

My 23 year old son is take drugs drinking and gambling so I've got a triple whammy . Such a lovely kid everyone loves him yet he is hiding this this dark secret life . He is so good at lying and covering his tracks he believes him self . He's had a good upbringing and good education yet he's turned into a lying deceitful dirty smell two faced nasty kid he steals off us and I think he steals from anywhere he can . He thinks the world owes him . Yes it should be how to help him and as a mom I'll do everything I can and more but I know everything I do is enabling him to live this life I just don't know how to stop or change what I' do. I Carnt sleep I eat junk food and I'm sooooo stuck in my own little world of badness . my mind only allows me to think about him and how I can prevent bad thinks happening. I think we have hit the worst then bamb something else happens . It's draining the life out of me and taking me into a dark place . I have no idea what to do where to go or even if I want to wake up . They say that they have to hit rock bottom before they get help .what about us I know I'm lower than rock bottom where do I go what do I do . 3 years of numbness 3 years of sad mom 3 years with no life 3 years of nothing but heart ache and such sadness . 3 years of just of watching the world go by wanting to join in but no energy or even any mind space to make a change .


Mrs P
19 Jul 2017

Hi Macca your story made me soo sad and I've thought of you a lot since reading , I know what your saying cos I'm feeling the same just breaks my heart just wanted you to know your not alone xxxx

Icarus Trust
7 Aug 2017

I'm so sorry to read your post and can see how badly your sons drugs drinking and gambling is affecting you..
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We offer support for those, like yourself, who are dealing with the impact of a loved one's addiction.
If you think it would be helpful we have experienced trained volunteers who you could talk with. They would understand what you are going through and  and they would be able to signpost you to what other help that is available.
You can contact us on or visit the website
I hope this is of some help. 
All the best.

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