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i lost my 3 boys

Posted by jema on 7 December 2014.

I've been on heroin since i was 15 fell in with the wrong crowd i was on an off gear till i was 19. Went to prison for shop lifting then came out on a methadone script got together with an old mate i got pregnant had a little boy then 10 months later had another little boy. The boys dad started doing gear again we split up i moved back with my mum. Then we got back together and he asked me if i wanted a bit of herion i said no but in the end i had a hit and then i was back to wear i started an addict again got arrested months later for theft social service got involved and i lost my boys luckily my mum and dad took custody of them and im able to see them everyday. I got pregnant again by mistake and i was stupid to think i would be able to keep him but my mum took him on aswell. I'm still on a methadone script im not using anymore and working on getting my children back with me. I nearly had a re-lapse as my dad just passed away on the 25th September two days before his birthday but i stopped and thought about my mum and brother and sister and my boys. I just hope my boys will be able to forgive me when there older to understand. But im happy they are with my mum as i know they are being looked after and are happy and loved that's all that matters to me. I know i failed them as a mother and that's had to come to terms with.

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Icarus Trust
8 Dec 2014

Hi Jema
Sorry to hear your story but glad your mum is around so that you can still see your boys.
Sounds like you are trying really hard which is great. If you need any other support The Icarus Trust is a charity which may be able to help you. We offer a free service of people who can talk to you and put you in touch with any help you might want.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website www.icarustrust.org
Good luck, keep going!

CANT TAKE NO MORE
22 Dec 2014

Jema, keep going Hunni, cause your kids will be so proud...you can be there for them. I know it's hard, and will always be hard, however,it looks like your making better choices..good luck Hunni xxx

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