We care, for the better.
A place for families, because you don't have to use drugs to be affected by them.
- How do I know if they're using drugs?
- Why do they use drugs/alcohol?
- Is it my fault?
- How can I cope with their behaviour?
- Understanding the stages of addiction and recovery
- Where do I get the help I need?
- Getting support for your loved one
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Posted by mrs.t on 19 September 2013.
Hi im a 24 year old i have the most beautiful son and a partner who is addicted to heroine, we've been together 8 years now and i was aware at the begining of the relationship he was a user but i fell for him. At the beginning it wasn't too bad but then 2 years in i found out he was injecting and when i found out and because i didn't leave him it was like he thort i was ok with it and he and life spiralled out of control it was the worst time of my life but somehow i stayed strong and about a year later helped him through his rattle and he stayed clean for a few years. In 2010 after moving to a new area and a few years of happiness even though he had the odd little blip he seemed to be able to keep controll. But i had a feeling he was hiding more then i discovered i was pregnant although i got told i couldn't have chrildren it was like a dream come true, i felt over the moon it was something id wanted so much for so long my life was finaly coming together but then he was smokin more often and lying about it he would tell me he's be somewhere but find him somewhere else would have dealers texting my phone day and night and to be honest i just buried my head in the sand ignored it and focused on my pregnancy. When my son was only hours old my partner was out scorin and came to the hospital stikin of the stuff i was heart broken and i felt so guilty to my son because looking at him i wanted the best life i could give him. a few weeks later i gave my partner an ultimatum because puttin me 2nd to heroine was one thing but not my son he deserves better so for about a year he done really well and stayed clean and was a fantasic hands on dad my son is nearly 18 months old now im still suffering from pnd and have recently found out he's smoking again and don't know what to do anymore i love him with all my heart but i dnt know if iv got the strenth anymore i never want my son growing up with his dad on heroine and my worst fear is that Hel spiral again iv told him so many times he's going to lose us if he carries on but it don't make any difference i know in going to have to to show him in serious but in finding it really hard and don't know if in doing the right thing i just want me and my son to be enough for him but don't feel we ever will because evry time we seem to getting anywhere i realise were just going backwards
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