mmmmmmmmmmlli mmmmmmmmmmlli mmmmmmmmmmlli mmmmmmmmmmlli

for
families

We care, for the better.

A place for families, because you don't have to use drugs to be affected by them.

sign in

Sign in to make comments and contribute your own stories. Or click here to register if you've never used the blog before.

Sign In

Want to find a support group? Enter your postcode or town below to find a support group near you.

Find help

Share Your Story

Is it something I said?

Posted by Feeling Lost on 4 August 2014.

Where to start? Not sure what came first! Mums alcoholism probably. No doubt aggravated by the birth & subsequent adoption of my son when I was just 16. Quickly followed by my marriage & 2 beautiful children. Divorce. The start of those beautiful children smoking weed. Another marriage & 2 more beautiful children. Divorce number 2. Older children moved onto Ketamine Cocaine Speed.....you name it. The discovery that my beautiful first born son was dead at the age of 21. Cause? Cocktail of heroin & alcohol! I'm reeling. Is this for real? Another discovery.......Husband number 1 is gay HIV positive using "G" & crack cocaine. I've been matter of fact in writing this down. If I open my heart & say it how it really is I don't know if the pain will stop. I have to be strong for my 2 younger children. 17 & 16 & so far so good! I feel helpless. Numb. Lost. I could go on with a very long list of negatives but what's the point. The heartbreak is turning to anger slowly but surely. I don't want that. It's ugly. I just don't know how to carry on anymore.

You must be signed in to comment. To sign in, use the form to the right, or click here to register if you've never used the blog before.

Submit