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A place for families, because you don't have to use drugs to be affected by them.
- How do I know if they're using drugs?
- Why do they use drugs/alcohol?
- Is it my fault?
- How can I cope with their behaviour?
- Understanding the stages of addiction and recovery
- Where do I get the help I need?
- Getting support for your loved one
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Posted by bluexxx on 3 May 2014.
Hello everyone my name is blue, Im not sure where to start, or even how to even begin to to express how I truly feel, words just do not cut that constant ache inside. This is hard I haven't told anyone I know about what has been happening at home let alone strangers. I have kept silent throughout my ordeal but I can no longer keep all of this inside, its eating away at the very last piece of hope left in me, I need to speak up and tell you my story, my younger brother is an alcoholic he has been drinking heavily since the age of 14, we tried to stop him but he only rebelled. He is now 21 years old and my family chain has been shattered. I tried to fix him, and his broken parts, I supported and encouraged him, I listened I put my life on the line I was there, a place to stay for the night a human bank and always made sure he was cared for and loved. My parents have done wonders but now after all of his abuse they are too poorly, mind body and soul. so I have stepped in.my parents have asked me to stay quite to not ever speak of his addiction as they are afraid of him, he has physically and mentally abused me, assulted me many of times under the influence and when sober too. He has recently started taking weed and pills, stealing from us, lieing hes changed....sometimes he acts like hes possessed he has no memory of his actions or remorse. He is only aggressive violently towards me, im unsure why. My parents health declinedthe past 3 years and our grandad recently passed away which has been unbearable, but my brother decided to get intoxicated and then visit him in hospital I had to restrain him and escort him to the car where he hit me repeatedly in the face. My grandad meant the world to me our bond was unbreakable, I was with him to the last breath, right to the very end, my brother attacked me physically the night I returned home and something inside me snapped. He said he would of rather drink himself to death than see our grandad as he was dead already.. it broke my heart and since that day I have fought back. I got in touch with a unit centre for young drinkers I took him there but he laughed and mocked me, I took him to the doctors for prescribed medication to stop the alchol but he didnt take them. I tried to sit and talk but he said many of times he hates me and wishes I was dead even though he was sober as judge. The title of my story lipgloss demons... lipgloss the beautiful temptation of alcohol package of death!! Demons well I think we can relate to that word. Drink has taken my loving brother away and left me with a complete stranger.. hes full of hate anger and has even planned my death..I am scared but my needs are second best, my parents to which I love with all my heart have suffered enough..they have treated him like a royal king and in return he treats them like slaves. Hits steals lies betrayes, all for the sake of one more bottle I just dont want to find out one day that one drink was the death of him, litres of cider tenants wine spirits his room is a brewery and my family are broken. Im crying now sorry thankyou for reading my story x blue xx
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