We care, for the better.
A place for families, because you don't have to use drugs to be affected by them.
- How do I know if they're using drugs?
- Why do they use drugs/alcohol?
- Is it my fault?
- How can I cope with their behaviour?
- Understanding the stages of addiction and recovery
- Where do I get the help I need?
- Getting support for your loved one
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Posted by AmandaA on 11 October 2013.
Oh where to start. I have had years and years of hell. My son is 22 a drug addict and has ASD issues. He lives on the edge of life with no friends, he is homeless, has no money, no purpose and no soul left. He has ripped me to pieces through the stress of it all. He bullies me, controls me and blames me for everything. There are too many incidents, too many traumas to recall. He has not lived with us for a long time due to his behaviour and dips in and out of homelessness. I finally reached the end of the road and hope i have the strength to follow through. I am cutting him out of my life completely, no more meals, no more abuse, no more money, no more paying for places for him to stay when he gets kicked out of his latest place. I want to take control and want to find myself again as i have got lost in the process. Its a horrible, lonely, terrifying place to be. I dont feel guilty, i just feel sad, so utterly sad. I feel as if i am grieving for a son that is still there but already gone. I am torn, i hate him but he is still my son. I know i have to let him go and i am going to try very hard to do that otherwise my health, sanity and family unit will not survive. We have done everything a 100 times over and nothing has worked. I want the pain to go away and for the constant black cloud that sits on my shoulder to disappear. In a short week the support i have had from DrugFam has really helped me and I hope i can continue to find the strength to take control. If he wont then i have to and he cant be a part of my life. x
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