Holiday struggles by Trainer28Hi again Trainer28 I've had a rough few years. My husband had been using on and off without me knowing (Cocaine in his case). I can't say how much - he had originally confessed in 2013 but wouldn't let me tell family, wouldn't give up drinking, wouldn't let me take control of his money. I should have left then. But he had a quiet few years or so I thought, until relapsing in 2017. Since then he has had a good 12-18 months, not drinking and going to meetings and he has been focused on recovery better than ever before, but he's hidden massive debts which have recently come to light and I can't carry on, I've got to protect myself and my children. I just can't trust him. In hindsight, there needs to be total surrender. The addict needs to be on their knees begging for help. They properly need to be at rock bottom before change is possible. If there's any suspicion that they are not, then walk. I wish I had known how bad things could get at the start of the journey I've been on.