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Codeine Addicition Experience by

Hi everyone, I hope you don't mind me jumping in here but I've just been reading through some of this thread and I can completely relate. I've been addicted to codeine since 2016 after I went to an indoor trampoline place and badly injured my back. I was on 30/500 Co codamol on repeat prescription until February last year when I fell pregnant. I would always run out early and would either ask different family/friends if they had any strong painkillers (anything would do) or I would buy lower strength versions otc. My GP immediately stopped my prescription when I fell pregnant and it was difficult but I managed to come off them completely by myself. When I was 7 months pregnant, I went into hospital in slow labour and had to stay for 5 days. What did they give me for pain relief? 30/500mg cocodamol. Every 6 hours, day and night. They also sent me home with a box. I finished that box then stopped again. Managed to hang on until 9 months and had my baby 5 days early and ended up with lots of stitches. The pain was terrible and I was once again prescribed 30/500 Co codamol and got given 30mg dihydracodeine after that for my back pain. This got me completely hooked again and because I no longer have pregnancy as a reason to make myself stop taking them, I have no will power. My GP will no longer prescribe it for me because I am breastfeeding so I buy it OTC. I have done really well and I'm only taking 2x 8mg tabs 3x a day, which is almost nothing but I just can't get down past that. Every morning when I wake up the first thing I do is take 2 before I eat breakfast. I then take 2 at lunch time and 2 at teatime, but I always plan my meals so it's on an empty stomach. Just this morning I discovered online pharmacies and have spent £55 on a box of 100x 30/500mg Co codamol with next day delivery. I'm so disappointed with myself. It has to be reviewed by a prescriber or whatever first then they will let me know if they have approved it or not so I might not even get them yet. Part of me hopes I don't but a bigger part of me hopes I do and I hate myself for it. I have a 2 year old and a 6 month old, a fantastic fiancee, a good job, great friends... And a codeine addiction that not a single person on the planet knows about. I'm surrounded by people but I still feel so lonely and trapped. I'm so sorry this ended up being so long and for just butting in here but this is the first time I've ever spoken to anyone about this so it's been nice to let it all out. Thanks for reading if you managed to get this far.