I’ve sent him away to live with his mum 3 hours away. He’s attending daily n.a meetings as there are more down there then where we live. But I keep having him back, throwing him out etc etc. It never ends.
I’m sad this time though as he got clean for 6 months in the summer when I sent him away then, he said missing me and the kids was more of a focus than the drugs. However he didn’t seek help, just kept busy and went to the gym so as soon as he come back and seen it for the first time his brain was straight back to “2 lines will be ok” way of thinking. He says your brain tricks you! I can’t accept that he doesn’t think of me or the kids before he’s about to reuse. Like surely you’d have one bit saying “ no not a good idea” and the other bit tricking you. But he says he doesn’t think of anything but having coke. So how can he ever stop?