Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story. I agree with Georgia that your wife definitely has a problem and needs support. But you deserve support too because what you are dealing with is so difficult!
If you would like to contact us at The Icarus Trust we could put you in touch with one of our experienced trained people who would listen and try to help. We are a charity that provides support to people like yourself who are affected by a friend or family member’s addiction.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you can get some support for yourself.
Good luck with everything.