Hi Amelia Jane,
I’m really sad to read how badly your husband’s drinking has affected your relationship with him . As Tess said you must feel emotionally drained trying to cope with him and keeping things together for your children.
May be it would be good for you to have some support for yourself. I work for The Icarus Trust which is a charity there to support people like yourself, who are dealing with the addictions of a partner or family member.
One of our team of very experienced trained people could be allocated to you if you contact us. They would listen to you and try to help you find a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you and your family.