Hi to you both,
So sad to read your posts and see how hard it is for you to deal with your partner’s addiction.
If you feel that you would like some other support for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust. we are a charity that provides support for people coping with a family member’s addictive behaviours. We have experienced trained people you could talk with, who would be able to let you know what other help is out there.
You can contact The Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck with everything.