Thank you jules1980
He’s ripped my heart to pieces his new GF stays she doesn’t agree with coke and she’s never seen him “off his head”and he told her he was single a while when it was less than a week!! He his it well for over 5 years. I really believe he left because he can’t hide it anymore. He’s slowly stopped seeing mutual friends unless drinking is involved. He used to go out and come home next day and say “I don’t know why I’m like this all I need is you” but do it again within a couple of weeks. I knew deep down he was using before he admitted it but when confronted always denied it until he couldn’t anymore. I spoke to him last week he said he’s only had it once on a night out since he left and we kissed twice, but told he the other women I tried to kiss him and he pushed me away. Now I spoke to her he won’t speak to me and sent a message telling me he doesn’t want to get back together. I know there’s nothing I can do to make him see what he’s thrown away. We bought a house when I was pregnant but he convinced me because I was on maternity leave to put it in his name. Stupid me now he’s telling me I will have to leave eventually. I despise the person he has become but can’t let go of who he once was as he makes an appearance occasionally. He reckons he started using on nights out then every weekend, I believe he was using midweek too though as he used to go to bed by 10pm before but started staying up till 2-3am drinking cans and falling asleep on sofa. I know I’ve lost him and I have to accept it, but it’s hard to let go