When everything hit breaking point, I spoke to him and he admitted he had a problem, and wanted to stop. But he has said that a few times now and he keeps relapsing. He’s on antidepressants because I made him go to the doctors, and he’s speaking with a counsellor because I made. I gave him those two main things he had to do to save our relationship. I just don’t know if he’s doing them to keep me off his back while he carries on or if he genuinely wants to get better. Im constantly on edge, watching what he does because he is so sneaky. Yeah friends who stay outside in the car isn’t normal, it makes me laugh how they try to explain something away and you just both know they’re lying, but they continue. It’s ridiculous.
It’s such a shame, my kids are too small to ask where he is, but it won’t be long before it starts to have an effect. I also feel single a lot of the time, when we go out to family things and all my siblings are there with their partners and I’m just on my own, it’s hard to explain it away.