Thank you for those words of encouragement, and you’re right my ex has hurt me in the worse way, as well as his own children. I’ve cried and cried also to the point of exhaustion.
Addicts become very selfish and end up so unstable they couldn’t sustain any healthy relationship anyway so it’s impossible to see a future.
I’m learning to take care of myself instead of worrying about him and what he is doing. He doesn’t look healthy, he looks awful. By the time his madness ends, hopefully I will be strong enough (and have moved on) to tell him NO thanks.