Hi Louise,
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m sorry to read about the hard time you have had and that you don’t feel that you have had closure.
It’s great that you’ve found this site but if you would like some more support you may like to contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that support people like you who are affected by a partner’s addiction. If you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our trained and experienced people that you could talk with, if you think that it would help you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.