Ur right iv always said to my ex u can’t hack the real world ! He’s 33 nearly 34 which is pathetic!
And yes their ego is bigger than their conscience! And unfortunately that will always win hence y they only show remorse wen on a come down and feeling shit about life!
Daydream u deserve more and I think sum times u have to take a leap of faith to c ur worth – once u do that u will look bk like an outsider and not recognise the old u.. u will c ur worth and get a man that is consistent clean and knows wats wat these arnt real men they boys playing with ppls and children’s lives selfish they know wat they are doing wen they go take it and choose to go do that rather than playing with the children or making fun with us!
The addiction might be an illness but if they really wanted to grow up and make lives with us and the children they would coz it should be the most important thing In the world to them like it it’s to us but the drug the “mates” the women and money takes over !!
Don’t sit and be second best wasting ur life waiting for him to fall trust me the minute he sees u get up and get on and ignore him he will soon panic ! But ur really worth more in a few years u will look bk and not believe uv sat and listened to all the bull sh lies and promises wen they have no intentions of keeping them wen on this stuff they physically mentally can’t- iv told my ex I’ll never go bk to him I’d never trust him and I don’t wana live that way but wen he’s fully clean or if he needs help getting there I’ll be his friend but I’m not waiting anymorw for him to fall and realise and it’s a weight off my shoulders- iv accepted now he’s chosen this life and iv got to get on with mine for my boys more so .
Iv recently had an unexpected death in my family then my very healthy uncle collapsed and now has terminal cancer ! It’s really put things into perspective for me life is short and can be gone at any given moment if they don’t care and see that then it’s their fault I begged my ex’s family to help me and him with all this and they don’t care so let’s hope they don’t get a knock on the door he’s overdoesed or in prison one day ! I’m not wasting anymore time on him now I’m glad I can vent on here it’s really stopped me venting to him wen he doesn’t read or listen to half wat I said anyway !
The day will come wen they do fall but I can’t waste my life any more waiting for it it’s been 3 years of hell and letting it go – happiest I’ve been for years xx