Wow I just read this and was completely gobsmacked! How are things now? I’ve been thru hell myself over the years, particularly the last six months. Something about your story resonates with mine. My story is on here somewhere!
I am so sorry that you’ve been through all this, and to think you stayed to try to help him over the years. You mentioned you used to be happy and independent, and now all of that you now have to build back up. Well, that’s what I think has clicked with me reading your story, as I feel like a completely different person. Self esteem and confidence is at an all time low and I’m so scared I’ll be this person now. I am literally scared of everything, and because of all the lies, Betrayals and treatment I have just gone silent. The pain of it all is ridiculous.
I hope things are better for you now.
I agree life with a cocaine addict is no picnic. It will literally destroy you in every which way. I had to leave also and what’s left behind is a trail of destruction and pain.
They are manipulative, so all this about giving up bla bla is all in the action. If they want to give up then they will do something about it, however that drug always seems to drag them to the hell they put their loved ones thru.
Run miles away and never look back. People have said to me before that cocaine is the devil drug, it changes people into monsters.
Makes me sick even thinking about what I’ve been thru