Sending a virtual hug xxx
I have found the more I try to help the more my son dislikes me for interfering/controlling his life.
Has your son got anyone he can talk to ? A favourite cousin/uncle/Aunt / Old favourite teacher – anyone ? Any local council addiction clinics ?
While he is using he will only Really listen to the addiction .
I believe the drug is Evil and selfish – an enemy of mine and wants to control his life , the life I gave him – but for the moment I think the best way to win is to step back , not interfere/help and let the drug think it’s won – Then when my son hits HIS rock bottom and PROVES he wants help I will help with every fibre of my being.
Although hard to do – you mustn’t bail him out it only drags out the ‘hitting rock bottom’ that he must reach before he can climb up again. Don’t lend /give money , I too wish I had a normal family , my stomach is forever knotted I feel like it’s been kicked by a horse. I also don’t sleep at night and trying to keep down a job . I cry when alone . To be honest I think I should get anti depressants – but am resisting.
I wish I could kidnap him for a few months to get the need out of his system but it really has to be them , they need to want to stop.
For your other children’s sake , and your own well being , and depending on your relationship with your son , tell him you love him , tell him it’s making you ill , tell him your stepping away , until he Wants help and proves it and mean it.
Have something to look forward too helps .
Xxxxx