Of course you love him. Unfortunately that drug has taken a hold and probably taken the man he once was and transported him into a different version of himself.
I think the ignoring is probably him avoiding discussing his issue as he doesn’t sound as though he is ready to give up. Maybe he doesn’t see it as a big deal yet, being in denial isn’t uncommon.
You can say whatever you want in these forums as long as you’re getting what you need and you’re expressing what you need too. There are lots of people on here going through similar issues so it’s good to talk it through with others.