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I just think to myself what will it take for me to say enough is enough. I know if I leave now I will find it so hard to stop being part of his life and I would likely cave and go back again because I hate to see him struggle, I hate feeling I could do more but at the same time he makes me feel like I’m going mad, telling me what I’m saying isn’t true and that he’s not bad compared to others. Sometimes I wish someone would take me away and not let go back or if I had kids I’d have a reason to walk away.