Wow you need to stop looking at them, that’s torture! How are you even doing that, but that’s what is upsetting you! Listen F**k them and their smiles it’s all fake. Remember, this guy is a drug addict and so he isn’t happy, and I don’t give a f**k how much he/she smiles, that’s all just superficial!
That’s not happiness!
As for having fun, well that’s on you, so long as this sort of fun don’t end in regret and tears. I’m so not ready for that and the idea scares me, although I have offers also.
I will stand my ground, I have to really for my own sanity! I know I was fed lies and he is scared of loosing me, his told me that, but that doesn’t mean I’m his priority! Drugs are and that drug lifestyle! I can’t take all that, I feel wounded.
Even when they come back, they come back with an agenda, which is usually all about them.