Hi Stephaniiie,
Well done for being so strong and for being able to make such a difficult decision.
I understand how emotional you must be feeling. You have good help from people on this site, but if you would like some more support for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that offers support to people in your situation, affected by a partner’s addiction. If you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our very experienced people who you could talk with if you think that would help.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
All the very best to you.