Wow, I totally get you! I do everything!
I have 3 kids also and it is so hard trying to juggle everything and try to keep the kids away from his vile moods!
Been with him over 16 years and like your hub says he hates the stuff but can’t stay clean for longer than 5 days now. It used to be once a month then once every 2 weeks then once a week and now it’s a struggle to keep him away from alcohol for longer than 2 days and with alcohol obviously comes the coke. It’s an horrendous circle that we live through 🙁
I really hope your hubby stays clean and starts to treat you the way you deserve it’s sounds horrendous what you have been through and put up with. You are not alone x