Also, because I respect his feelings too, I asked him what he wanted to do in general, what he wanted in life, what was better for him, going through this. With or without me, etc. I was just curious. I asked him also if he still wanted to be with me, period. He says my support has always been crucial and he still loves me, nothing has changed, he’s just struggling but and cannot believe I’m still there for him. Many times before, he packed his bags in anticipation of being thrown out after doing something wrong or because he said he didn’t want to put me through this anymore and I was better off without him, I simply replied that was my decision to make and I didn’t want to leave him. It would definitely be easier for me, my life would be much simpler, but like I said I don’t want to just give up. Especially not after everything we’ve been through. Also, this is not criticism for people who do leave their loved ones because of their drug use. I understand how they feel. This is just my story.
