Bump22: I am so sorry to hear all of this, I know that your son mixing with the people he has chosen to hangout with must be really frightening. The fact that his old friends still care about him and go looking for him says a lot about who he really is. You’ve tried so hard to help him, and I really believe that when they are like this they are taking it on board but just not able to face up to the enormity of the fight to get clean. Whatever he might be saying he knows how much you love him. Please look after yourself and your family, you need to still be there when he does start listening – which I think is what Jayhissay said in one of her messages. From what I have been told by addiction workers, most people do get clean some just take longer than others. Things feel hopeless right now but he has a strong family who will support him.
I hope you do go away at the weekend with your younger child – just being in a different space will be good for your head. Praying for you xxx