Thank you that may be helpful.
To be honest I don’t know but today I feel anxious and sick and I know why because I’m suspicious again. It’s also because I’ve been around my mum who is far from supportive. I must the only person who loved lockdown because it meant I didn’t have to mix with anyone. I don’t want to mix with people because they ask questions I don’t want to answer. I know whats going on, I know my situation isn’t normal and it’s not ideal. But I’m trying to make the most of a rubbish situation for my kids I feel I need to help their dad but what I will say is if he messes up his treatment when he goes on it that’s because I have done more then most would and at least I can honestly say to my children I did everything I could.