Jaynhissay, oh wow. My heart goes out to you, it really does. To get to such a low low point, it’s heartbreaking. I’m so glad to hear your attempts failed and so so sad that it had reached such a low point, and although you’re in a totally different situation, I can empathise with the exasperation to a degree. Many times in my life I’ve felt totally worthless, but to get to the point where I wanted the pain to stop that I would go to such measures, I think you’re so brave to acknowledging that’s how bad it got, it’s brave that you’ve managed to walk away, have that as part of your story and not the end. Honestly, well done to you.
How are things for you now, on a daily basis I mean? Are you still receiving and accepting the support from others?
I do recognise that we all have things challenge us in life, things I haven’t shared on here that I’ve been unfortunate enough to have experienced, things that have pushed me to the worst places mentally, but that I was later able to overcome to a manageable point. For years I thought there was some higher power punishing me, but I realised that bad things happen to good people, we make our own luck and our lifestyle choices are purely that… ours to own and change if we’re not satisfied with them.
Do you get any medical assistance too? Are the ‘state’ involved at all?
Sending much love and care