Coco1212, likewise, honestly. And I’m glad he came home.
I’m feeling pretty bad about some of the things I said in my last post. I don’t wish my bf I’ll health at all, I’ve spent a great deal of time energy and money trying to protect him from harm.
So much love / hate.
I do in part believe your X that he wasn’t totally sure what it was, but partly I think curiosity is also equally to blame. A mate of mine smoked a cigarette laced with crack and didn’t realise what is was, she was almost sabotaged into doing it, she’d realised very quickly she’d made a mistake. Crack I know, green I know, heroin I haven’t got a clue about the taste, smell, look.. nothing, I’m guilty of being naive to it.
I know covid is impacting everyone’s lives, but I do honestly wonder if it didn’t happen would we be in such a bad position now? Im pretty sure we wouldn’t. Have you ever seen Johann Hari’s TED talk on addiction? I try and keep that Portugal logic in the back of my mind, I think it made our relationship stronger (but no less turbulent). a lot of me thinks I can’t stop him doing what he feels attached to, especially now. My aim was and still is to try and reconnect him with the world. I keep thinking if Covid hadn’t happened, would things really be this bad? honestly I don’t think they would be. Xxx
Jaynhissay, good to hear from you. How are you doing? Is your head any clearer? Xxx