Hi, so it’s 5am and after all the promises and me listening and offering to support and help.:. He didn’t turn up again, and I could tell the distinct pattern! He’s using! After all day telling me he loves me and I really do love him and I reassure him I’m not Cheating or talking to anyone. He goes mad calls me a sl@g wh@re and worse etc and then calls me from 3;40 demanding to know who’s in my house, to a point where he makes me video call to prove it! Says I’m twisting his head it’s all me! I’m lost I’m confused breaking my heart yet again, disrupting my life. I’m so anxious and lost, he even makes his kids believe I’m sat with someone, why they now hate me! I know I can’t make him change but I’m in love with him when he’s normal he’s my world and it’s killing me to know I’ve got to lose that person cos of his choices, and nothing I can do will wake him up! Another awful day, but there are so many, when will I wake up ????
