The awkward thing is he stays here because he hides in his house to do it. He’d never do it around anyone he will literally lock himself away. My flat is like his safe space. Which I’m fine with because to be honest he’s never been abusive or violent with me at all.. (am I naivete for thinking this won’t be the case in the future??) He has control over the addiction (to a certain degree) and can go weeks/months without it.
It doesn’t consume me like it used to but I know its there and its not going away. However, just because its once every couple of weeks doesn’t mean I’m prepared to put up with it.
I fear it will escalate as he wasn’t even smoking when he first got together (can tell by his behaviour and his general life was going really well).
I just know this isn’t how my life was supposed to pan out. I read this blog over and over for months because it was just crazy how the experiences tend to be the same.
Your hit hard.. you tried to ‘save him’ .. and its so true and so sad!
I want to save him but not prepared to jump of the cliff with him.
I guess there is no saving them?
Thank you again for all your advise and words. I know ill get there one day I guess I just need to hit my breaking point.
I will definitely go on that chat, but I think I will save it for a day he’s using and I feel hopeless!
I hope your taking really good care of yourself and feel supported in your journey, you deserve all the love and happiness the world has to offer!