Jaynhissay, and if you don’t mind me asking, do you feel it’s as draining for you as well as others? Do you know how others get exhausted by it? It’s exhausting for me at times, and I do suffer emotional turmoil, does my bf know how emotionally draining it is? I guess I’ll never understand the why, but I’m past caring now. I just want a good life, either together or apart.
I’ve decided to get my own place, somewhere new, it’s a lovely flat, a gorgeous area, quiet and safe with everything nearby – it can be a fresh start. I’ve told my bf I want him to make it a home, and although I’ve half accepted him for who he is, i can’t have his drugs around me.
I don’t know what’ll happen, it could go either way. It does feel like we’ve reached a point that we can’t go back, things are changing in one way or another.