Your reply reduced me to tears. Everything you say is completely true. I have no problem saying he’s an addict, I know he is and I hate it. He’s a fairly new addict but he’s on crack and on methadone which he’s done very well on despite a couple of hiccups.
Although I’m well aware addiction is easier to then get off it infuriates me. I do believe he wants to quit heroin and he will but crack I’m not so sure. I just wish he’d wake up and see the damaged it’s caused but I doubt that will be anytime soon.
I know I need to break free but when I know I’m all he has it’s so hard I wish it wasn’t so hard. I have his children and if anything happened to him and I don’t know if I could forgive myself never mind our children and this is the part I battle with.
I know it’s his choice, I know I’ll never come close now to his habit or worse his children.
This is what I agonise over.
If he had his own place, safe and secure I could relax.