I agree with you completely. I worry that people would judge me, as if I’m giving up on him but I also want to put myself first, we deserve that, right? I mean, if he can’t admit that he has a problem, he’s not ready and I do not judge him for that at all I can see how that would be an extremely difficult thing for an addict to do. I accept it that he isn’t ready, and I hope with all my heart and soul that one day he can and he’ll move forward from it. I just also don’t want to risk so many years passing in case nothing changes, I never want to end up resenting him. It makes me sick sometimes the indecision and constant back and forth about what to do. Even today, I have had a really difficult day in work, I’ve come straight to bed because I am so overwhelmed, but he’s been out for his ‘walk’ and has been drinking so I have no support from him when I’m not ok, and it makes me feel so alone and hopeless. We deserve to be happy, have a happy relationship and have love and support.
