[davidk]

ha yeh I certainly feel insane,

its just fighting madness with reason.

logic vs chaos.

rational vs irrational.

reason vs unreasonable.

sane vs insane

So hard not to take personally as you feel your love isn’t enough to save them.

I try and remind myself that essentially this isn’t so surprising, as even having 2 kids that should come first isn’t enough.

whilst she does care for them, you can hardly say an addicts choices are putting their children first.

So if the children isn’t enough then why would I be.

but this is all the more why I find it so hard to accept how the kids are being now, as I always assumed that they must feel the same hurt as I do.

Like it was an unspoken link between us, but now it seems that was just me.