Thank you for your reply & well done on the 4 week mark!!! He was going through stages of remorse & saying he wanted to stop & had become a monster but then he’d just use again the next day, it’s almost like he’s crating his own reality now which bears no resemblance to what’s actually going on & wont talk about the drugs at all, just says he’s stopped & it’s all mental health related (yet won’t do anything about either issue). His parents are very old fashioned & don’t understand it at all, they put him on house arrest for 5 days & thought that magically cured him! – and I know he was still using then when I went round! They just desperately want to believe their son & trying to explain to them that isn’t who they are dealing with any more has just ended up in them basically thinking I’m mad! (Plus my ex is going out of his way to make it look like I am & I’m the awful one & posting horrible things on social media implying I’m the one to blame for the break up) – god only knows what he’s been saying in person. It’s so hurtful when all I’ve ever done is love him & give him everything. It’s so sad how it happened, he was very anti drugs, I think he tried it one night & then a few more times & then started using it as a coping mechanism for stress & it’s snowballed from there – he’s been a functioning addict for about 9 months I think but it’s got to the point now I don’t think he’ll be able to hide it For long when he goes back to work (he’s had 6 weeks off after the car accident & literally went completely off the rails on the coke doing it all day every day) I don’t think he knows what planet he’s on half the time. He won’t leave our rental property either, thank god there’s only two weeks left on lease, today I called in & he had all 4 gas rings on, the oven with a cremated pizza, the house was like a sauna & he was asleep upstairs with his pants round his ankles & mobile in his hand. It’s painful to see but there’s no point in telling his parents as they just believe whatever he tells them
