I’m so sorry you feel this way but I understand and I feel the same. My husband is also a cocaine addict. He’s meant to be trying to recover and stayed home for the past 2months but the last couple of days he’s found strange excuses to see his best friend (this is who he started using with). When he left last night he took the car but took his van keys, when he came home I picked up his van keys and asked to look in his van and he completely freaked out. It caused a huge argument which ended up in me feeling crazy and paranoid. You possibly are a little depressed, it’s so much to take on your plate and really messes with your head. Unfortunately addiction is very selfish, addicts don’t see what they’re putting those they love through. Feel free to talk here any time, I feel it really helps and nobody judges you. It’s a lonely feeling but know that you are not alone and there are others who are going through the same things you are and we’re here to help and support each other
