Hi
So sorry to read all that you have been through. If you would like to contact us at Icarus Trust we could put you in touch with one of our Family friends. We are a charity that supports people living with the affects of addiction and understand how difficult this is. Our Family Friend would listen to you and offer you support.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope this helps. All the best.