hi guys,
so I find myself having suffered a … lapse? would you call it?
Under increasing pressure from my partner, who bombarded me with calls and messages, I agreed to support him until he got his rehab date. Yesterday he got his rehab date finally.. and what did he do… he went off and used, for the first time in about 2-3 weeks. He called me and confessed, and I felt all the same despair and anxiety creeping back.
I went for a walk to try and clear my head, but it could not be cleared. So I called him back and headed for his flat. Guess what? He had a drug person there, and would not let me in. He’d decided to carry on using drugs. And I found myself right back where I was 2 years ago.
So as I said to you all, it never ends.