Coco wow! She said that?! I am honestly shocked. Crack and heroin are highly addictive life changing drugs, who is this women to say it’s ok do a bit now and then and be fine?! Im sure there are some people out there who are physiologically less influenced by drugs, I often wonder if I’m one of them, but ultimately, the fact that it has taken ALL of THIS to get your partner back on track means he’s likely not one of those people. He did it, he got addicted, he’s getting it under control now, he does not need to get the taste for it again. For goodness sake!
And Coco, darling, I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you, fear of something you can’t control happening is not good. And in response to that I say… Firstly, you have enough on your plate to worry about what else could happen, but hasn’t yet. secondly, girl there’s nothing you can’t handle, honestly you’ve come through so much and supported me at the same time, no matter what knocks on that door, you will know how to handle it, and you can handle it. Thirdly, fear can often be that very thing… just fear. Things are improving, time will help.
Family, we’ve spoken about this before, it’s the same for me. Everyone else thinks they know best, but they’re not the ones living it, you are.
Ive said all my life I couldn’t understand why women have affairs, (I know this is totally unrelated, but I do have a point) I took a vow of marriage, i honestly swore to god that I would do everything to keep that marriage alive, until things went horribly wrong in that relationship and my best mate asked me if I was having an affair, to which I replied, “no, but I can see how people do” – that was the first time I ever truly felt like I’d misjudged people for their actions without having experienced them personally. Like my family do, I’m sure your family just care about you and are trying to look out for your best interests. I get that now they know the situation they are keen to know what’s happening, it’s annoying that things can never be un-said. I get that you’re being more cautious and distant from them to avoid any judgement and concern. I am the same. Totally, as you know.
I know I’m not physically there in your circle, but I am totally here and I have your back Coco.
Perhaps try and take each day as it comes, don’t worry about facing something you can’t handle. That’ll never happen and you don’t need to face anything alone. Here with you. Xxx
As it happens I did burn myself out a bit these past few weeks. I’m sick and achy and tired, it can’t be helped. It can’t be covid, I haven’t been anywhere, a few days rest and I’ll be back to normal I’m sure. I’m taking a step back now.
Are you still working? Xxx
Sending care xxx