Hollie, if you don’t mind me saying, it seems as though there are quite a few red flags aside from the cocaine and binge drinking. Cheating whilst you are official and being unkind to you. You say that this has affected your confidence. You’re relatively early on in the relationship, and that should be when he’s on ‘best behaviour’ and still in the honeymoon phase. Honestly, if it was a friend telling me this I would be upset to hear that she was being treated in this way.
I have a close relative addicted to cocaine and alcohol and he simply can’t sustain a relationship. To be honest, I don’t blame the few girls he has seen over the last few years who have left him, because the drugs make him a very difficult person to be around. He is unpredictable, paranoid and unreliable due to his illness.
I’d say that if you had been together for years or had kids together then it may be different, but this early on it may be better to step back. You deserve to be with someone who doesn’t put you down, someone who can make an effort for you. When lockdown ends, you want to be able to go out on dates at the weekend not waiting for him to sleep off the effects of his comedown. You can point him in the direction of support services, but it will be down to him to commit to changing his behaviour.