Thank you once again liberty. I know you,you didn’t mean to make me jealous and I didn’t mean it that way. It’s just I wish I was like you, like I had your drive. I wish I had something to look forward to or just to take my mind of things.
I’m being pathetic, I’ve no clue what’s wrong with me. I should be feeling better surely, he’s clean so why does it still so stressful and frustrating?
Maybe I’m am part of the issue.
I can’t believe how much you’ve been through you had so pain and tragedy and yet your still hopeful and driven.
That’s what makes me think I’m trapped in the past or something.
I can’t move on from the lies and betrayal. It’s like as I sit here writing this I’m thinking about things that happened this time last year. Like the anniversary of his grandma’s death is coming up and his birthday last year he ditched us to spend the evening with his dealer and having steaks and champagne. Also my baby would of been due next week and guilt and pain of that is crushing. X