Smh, bless you sweetheart, no it is not that he doesn’t want you, but cocaine rules his head. Please don’t take it personally. It is NOT and in NO way your fault, nor does it say anything about you.
The problem is that cocaine takes over your life and he probably spends all his time around like minded people, its what happens. He will spend less time with people who dont do it, and more with people who do, until it gets to the point where he’s almost 100% with the addict mates, and never with you or the non drug users.
I dont want to alarm you, but it took 15 years for my husband to get to this point, and before that for the last 7 years we had a few months clean here and there. It took a hole in his nose and a massive reality check to get himself clean.
Here for you whenever you need to talk x