Hi Jadeem,
I’m so sorry to read your post about how your boyfriend’s drug use is badly affecting you. It must be hard if you are not able to talk to your family and friends about it so I’m glad that you have found this forum.
If you would like some more support you might like to contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to the families around those with addictions as we know how hard this is to live with. if you contact us you would be put in touch with one of our Family Friends who are trained ,experienced and very good listeners. Talking with one of them might help you to find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
I hope this helps. Good luck.