Reply To: Feel totally desperate about son’s addictions.

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drainedmum
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Hi Tiredmam

I am reading your post and I can relate to everything.

My son is basically killing me emotionally and mentally with his lies, debt, and activities ( which has turned me into a cid)

I work full time and it is affecting all my life as though I’m the addict. I have withdrawn from all friends as I am so ashamed, also I can’t bear seeing their kids living as a responsible person as it makes me feel as failure as a mum as my child is not acting like a responsible adult.

Easter Sunday I lay on my bathroom floor and just wanted to leave this world ( not as in doing anything) but thinking it’s the only way I’m going to get peace as a year on, arguments, hugging and being truthful to making more debt I see no end. He rang a help line and said they took details and said he would be appointed a keyworker but could take up to 3 weeks? But now I think that is a lie too. He has had 3 bank accounts blocked so now I’m worried he is moving money for people ( not sure what else)

This is just some snip it’s, I have no one to talk to, his once real friends have all disappeared, so can’t get any info. Any advice would be grateful.

My husband can’t cope, he rares up then acts like everything is back to normal, leaving it to me to be the constant checker, questioner etc

I feel like I’m close to a break down which then will affect my job

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