I’m so sorry to hear about all of your stories but also glad it is not just me.
My bf of 10 years has been using on and off for 4 years. I found out just before Christmas and he said he’d stop but I’m fairly sure he’s still using. It’s so hard but if he’s not going to be honest I feel like I can’t help him.
I bought cocaine tests online and he won’t do them, I feel like thats a massive red flag. I don’t feel nice asking him to do them but if he’s denying using and I think he is, I don’t see another way. If he keeps saying no I think I have to leave. We own a house together but luckily I can go to my parents.
I feel awful abandoning him when I can see he is struggling (he is also on anti depressants). But me being miserable is also not going to help him…