I can relate to your post. It’ so difficult when children are involved. I feel like this at times wanting to stop contact with the kids. However, in my case its got to the point where I don’t think he would be that bothered at this present time.
I don’t think anyone of us in a similar situation would have imagined our life to end up like this. I for one didn’t!!
I am currently feeling the heartache and anxiety of being alone, but in all honestly I spend quite alot of time alone with kids when he disappears. I have started to come to terms with the fact life will get easier without him in it as at present he brings nothing to the table.
I hope your struggles get easier and you start to feel more positive soon. Take care